Advice and Relationships

I can't help but wonder where my grandmother is. I want to think that she's here with me, but I don't feel her around like I did when she first past. I've heard that there are transitional fazes when you first pass. I wonder if I will ever feel her again like I used to! I miss her so much and just want to make her proud! I still can't believe she's gone, and it kinda freaks me out that I got so used to not being near her, asking for her advice. I hope she knows I was with her when she passed.

I'm sitting on the couch right now, and this is the exact place she died. I really wish my dad didn't have to sell the house, but my gma took out a loan and we kinda have to. I think I'm going to put up a YouTube video of the house before we move, so I can always remember what it looked like before we left. I wish her ashes made me feel like she was with me! I miss her so much!